Monday, November 12, 2012

Permission

The past couple weeks have been a bit of a roller coaster ride. Mostly fun, kind of scary. The last week of October I got a call from a company where I previously had an interview. My first interview was over 6 months ago, and I didn't get that job for various reasons. Long story short, I did get the job this time around.(!!!)  Sometimes I have a hard time accepting, but absolutely do believe that everything happens in God's time.

In this situation, God was definitely saying, "Not yet", and now I can say I'm thankful for the delay. In the words of Steel, "You(I) used to be kind of a mess.".  Now, don't get me wrong, I'm still a bit of a mess, but I'm on the mend. It has been a long time since I have given myself permission to believe that I honestly deserve all the good stuff in life. Still, I can't believe that I am getting this opportunity, but I DO believe I deserve it. Finally.

I did not find my dream job when I first got out of school. Congratufuckinlations to all of you who did. Bitter? Who, me? Kidding! I made my bed, and I laid. For a year and a half. Actually, I was pretty excited about my first "Big girl" job. I am grateful for the experience, but it just wasn't fulfilling enough for the long haul.

Of course, I never had any of these "tantrums".
 
I drove A LOT for my job. I kept telling myself that I would have a new job before I hit 50,000 miles on my car, and at 48,497 it happened! Sadly, that means that I won't be taking nearly as many pictures that look like this: 


The end of the car headshot era.
 
I am So, SO happy, blessed, lucky and overwhelmed by the new adventure I'm about to take. I am also very thankful to have so many people in my life that are happy for me.
 
Something I sincerely plan to do.

2 comments:

  1. Girlfriend, Hayley, we need to get you a "followers" button, so I can add you to my reading lists. I like your style of writing! :)

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